BuZZ...NoThInG mOrE...

huh..bosannye..
ari ni is the 4th day of class..
ok lah..even kena amek 7 subject..
tp yang bosannye..
ari ni semua balik...coz my housemate takde class..sok sampai ahad..
then i thought nk g vacation but well tak mengizinkan..
so kena lah duk umah sewa...
nak balik..rs malaslah..tambang lagi..
dhlah nk jimat..ceh2..
i thought nk berehat jelah kt uma..
klu blk jb mesti penat..coz kena layan mcm2..
lg2 my bf busy jek br2 ni..so klu duk cni taklah kaco die sgt..
i thought im being ok 4 all of dis..
tp br jek td tgk budak2 ni balik..feeling rs tak sedap lak..bosan...
pas2 klu ak tahu si aini ngn pojie blk petang ni..
baik ak ikut..
jimat tambang skit..tp menyesal r..
nk wt cne..takleh patah balik..
takkan nk tinggalkan si linda..
ak lak dh janji dgn die tak nak balik...sebb die pun malas nk balik..
haiya..sunyi nye umah..
bosannye nk tunggu ari mendatang lagi 3 ari..duk r ko sorang2 kt umah dgn poket kosong...
klu cni ade wayang sedap gak...boleh melencong..cne lah ak wt keputusan ni..huh!!

well...its so fast to having my break..
just a month..and i felt like a week..
so boredd..
hehe..sometimes feel so lazy to study rite nw..
my honeymoon time still cannt end..
hwever..lovely day..lovely time..and need to put some strategy after having bad results now..
i need to be fresh all the time..and open the eyes very widely in class..
hahah..
hm...yesterday..is a day for student like us to register..
after dat..right away to my rent house ...it is so tired after a long journey..
after a big fight with my sis...hehe..
so nothing unusual..just some decoration room with noi and pojie..haha...
it is so hard to deco my room becoz of the size and to much package or lets say bargage of me..
mastermind of clothes...aini which she need to pick some of my clothes for class..and the rest of it..
need to throw away which means send back to house...
hehe..i got a lot of clothes and makes me worried coz no place to store..even in my real house..
women..women..well..cannt say anything..
i like clothes and i like something sweet unique and cute..
perempuanlah katakan..cannt avoid it..
and funny to say..the more bigger and plus of age..
the more like women and child i am..
well before dis im seem like tomboy and rough..before gone to universty and meet my cutest boy..
everything change and i dnt knw why..
but hope everyone like it..hehe..even a little bit lecehlah..
yelah..make up..clothes and many more..
is im make up..nope i think ..juz like to buy make up..haha..

Huh..belum pun masuk campus..
otak ak dh serabut balik..
mahu tak serabut..satu2 problem smpai..
smpai ak tak tahu nk settle cane..
sabar2..sabar separuh dr iman..

semalam bf ak terus terang yg laptop ak memang dh tak blh betulkan langsung..
sedih2 gak..tp nk wt cne..senyap je r..nk marh sbb die tak terus terang dr awl pun tak leh gak..
klu ak tahu dr awal pun..ak leh wtpe..beli br...huh! mane nak cekau duit sikalang ...
ak keje pun semata2 nak tanggung diri knn tak nak mintak duit mak bapak..
skrg terkapai2 ak lagi..
tggl lagi setengah tahun jek lagi b4 habis belajar..
laptop dh takde..
ak nk wt assignment pkai ape..
pkai mulut...bayngkan lah ak takde kemudahan 2..
mahu kering diri ak..

dahlah ayah ak lak ckp suh pulang kan keta b4 february..
sbb die kata road tax mati..
tp bile ak tanye bila nk hidupkan..
ayah ckp bonus takde..
so maksudnye...ak takde kereta lah..
Ya Rabbi...makin mencabar hidup ak last2 sem ni..
dahlah result jatuh..so means ak kena amek short course..
even tak ler jatuh sgt tp terbukti yang ak tak leh amek 8 subject...tetap kna amek short course..
takde kereta..takde laptop..
cne ak nak studi..
Ya Allah kuatkan lah semangat ak...
tggl last sem jek..takkan nk tarik diri..
klu ak beritahu apis pun ..wtpe..nk nyushkan die lagi..
dahlah die byk tolong ak..
smpai utk family die pun ak tak pasti ade tak..

Sabar2...ade rezeki ade..ape yg ak leh wat..
pndai2lah...

Working in my new place..
something nt so interesting..hehe..
4 d first time im wearing Mcdonalds shoes..which so big than my real shoes size..
actually..i thought i would working in spore..
well..even just as part time..we still need permits..
so just working wif my frens...
a little bit rough and so tired nak mampus lah..
gosok besi..then letak thinner..pas2 kena cat..tiap2 ari benda yg sm kena wt..
bila pikir2 balik..this is 1 of the inspiration and reasns why i must work hard for my own life..
tp jgn pandang rendah pd org yg kerja mcm ni..
sbb kadang2 mereka lebih baik dr kite..
tahu kenapa..
sape yg sanggup berpanas..dan berpenat lelah buat sume kerja ni semata2 mencari nafkah hidup..
so we should salute this people..
bcoz even they are nt like people who go to university but they have energy that we dnt have...
i i...chief..hehe..

It is so tired day and especially 2nite after having a heavy task in my world now..
hahah...well...my story 2day is aboutt my work..my new work..
juz part time worked which i need extra money for my studies..or
before end of sem..im broke..hahha
So me, zila, pojie,dayah and sya working as servant or waiter or actually i dnt knw wat kind of work i am..
im working in persada...or smtimes hyattt..which we plan to try alll hotel in jb..
hehhe..
it is the most tired work compare of other..
actually, i have being offer to be clerk in SDA COMPANY..
but just becoz of my limitation time..1 month and my frens..which no transportation without me..
i cant consider about it at all ..huhu...
actually..i really want that work..huhu..
it is such good experience..For my course actually in management
well wat can i do..
sacrifice ler jwbnye..

Then 2day i have to serve Johor corporation which actually IPTA were compete in orchestra band..
and it is such fun experience...
juz im too tired after working 8 hours a day..
Im so nervous when working in there..
with such lousy or wat can we say as strict management with people that like and love to yell each other without consider other people feelings and humiliating each other..
huh!!
But i really like one guys which my captain..
wat i mean like is respect him bcoz of his ability in handling his stress..
without yelling or angry..
slowly helping and consider us as new entry,,
not like other captain which so berlagak..huhu...
Hwever it is nice experience...
fun and interesting which before this im always serving by other people..
but now..i have to serve people..
so scary if we had done any wrong..
malunye nanti..
Huh..hope 2moro..have other job..
i need work..huhu..
takde keje takde income..
i need moneylah beb..
hah!! satu2 nye risiko klu keje hotel..
no function no work and no money.
thats why i always think of that clerk offer..
i really hope that i get that work..
hwever it is such a dream now..
like dreaming by being marketing executive with high abilities like men..
bcoz women can do wat men do..

oH YA..little bit busy without him around now..
and he too busy working as wiring man..duit lebih katakan..
i miz him after having a little fight this morning bcoz mis each other 2 much but cant meet bcoz of my silly careless attitude..
hey..it is nt just my fault 2..
hehe..
okie..chow..love u all..
mcm mak nenek tul ak bebual...

hm...dis totally angry story from me..
Haha..actually sometimes funny..
All of dis start a few days ago when he promise 2 take me out to wayang..
25hb is his salary pay day..means our dating day...klu bkn ari gaji..
jgn haraplah die pggl dating..die akan pggl out day only..hahah
then, he said he will take cuti..
but suddenly, he said we will go out at 6 o'clock..
i dont mind as long we going out..but then huh!! he said we gone out 7 o'clock..
ok fine..im juz waiting at his work place which is sime darby..
then both of us had 2 wait his boss back home first becoz for him ..its not gd if workers go back before boss..
so im respect it..
then 7 smthing me and him go to his home which i met his dad and mum..
while waiting for him changing..i have a talk wif my mother in law..haha..
8'oclock we gone to pasar malam bcoz he want to bought new jeans..
then gone back 2 his home..and 8.40 pm ...br bertolak..
but before reach our destiny , we need to go courts to settle his sister thing's..
after dat..we continue our destiny...
to CS to watch movie after such a long time i didnt watch movie(wayang)...
when we reach the car park..his brother call dats his frens need some tools to do the work at Kotaraya...im nearly lose my patients..but never minds..
im okay ...dats nearly 9.15 pm..
sempat ni...i told myself..
he keep apologize 2 me..but its ok..
then 9.30pm we reach back to CS car park..
then in wayang..he ask me what story i want 2 watch...the time show 9.40 o clock...
i wondering is there have time for me 2 watch..which all movie start 10pm..
before dis all movie start 9.15..now 9.40..
so do i have choice now..well..its nt because of movie or wat..becoz my dad didnt allowed me to go back after 12o'clock..
its nt just because the time..i have been train do nt gone back late..
its nt gd for girls,,dats my dad always said..and i respect dat..and little bit afraid to him..hahaha
dats make me worried if i take 10 pm movie...sempat ke nk balik sblm kul 12..
then i said to him.."its ok lah sayang..we gone back..dnt have to watch"..
even i said dat...my heart felt to blast and huh...disappointed..and he keep repeating apologize
but wat can we do..its happen and nak jaga hati i..
he try to buy our new ring(after i had lost our first ring)
but..huhu..takde rzki agknye..
the ring had no size of me..huhu..
its really make me dissappointed and angry..
he try to cheer me up but well bile hati dh kecewa
its so hard to mend back..
but he really tried hard..
he take me to mcdonalds even im nt so hungry..try to play wif me..and try to make me laugh..
im happy after dat..still can laugh and smile but..dats is the day dat i will never forget and still give me heart broken bcoz until now...he still cnnt fulfill his promise for our wayang..huhuhuhu....
and 2 moro i have 2 work in persada..
and when im start working means it can be no time for him after dis...

Wow..dats such a long time i didnt write in dis columnn..
Ya well...when im back 2 johor..seems like i have another world in here..
nt usually in virtual or imaginations things like internet..
watching tv....going outside..shopping and many things dat funs to do..
but dis few days..a little bit bored..
My Mr.Guys is really busy all the time..
Work,...work...all the time he knows..
And 4 the firs time i felt like been step aside..means being ignore..
But wat can we do..
understand because it is one of the rules and our challengers in relations..
But hwever 2 moro..he promise 2 take half day to bring me walk and having our fun days..

But actually mp3 column is nt about those things but about my heppi things such as
my new mp3..
well...he is really understanding and most nice guys dat i ever met..(haha...br nak puji)
actually he want me to accompany him 2 go to landmark to buy his new laptop..
im so jeles wif people who have money becoz they can buy anything they want when work..
but me..huh!!
Hwever..after choose his new laptop...hp compaq brand which so nice and beautiful..
black colour..hitam itu menawan
i told him ...2 look for my mp3 which i want 2 buy when i work..means part time work..
kumpul duit ..then beli ape yg ak nak..haha
but suddenly he said..come look 4 ur mp3..and i juz thought nothing about it..
then he said he will buy for me..
i look at his face with confusingly..hm...
no way..it is so many thing he had buy for me..
and i felt ashamed but dgn selamba he said..
its cnnt comparing with what i have done for him..
hm..and he buy for my lovely walker mp3..
and i had no time to choose bcoz he need to go back 2 his work faster..
huh!such short time wif him..
i love dat mp3,...nnt i show the pic...soon...
bese jek..nt so expensive as long it from sm1 special in our heart

Hari ini die call..
even tgh ngantuk..
he still could talking with me...
im glad to have him in my life..
How grateful i am...

we r talking 4 about an hours..
im realli miz him..
But im wondering when could i end my a real dream to a beautiful life ..
Haha...still in long distance...

U know what i want in my life..
Nothing more than what he want..
His happiness is my happines..
4 me..my family and him is my priorities

Skrg ni pun die tgh bertungkus lumus 2 achieve our dream..
Tadi i make him promise..
tp bukan janji sbnrnye..
tp ibarat satu cubaan ataupun percubaan utk die kekal sbg dirinya shingga akhir hidup kami
Aku tidk ingin die berubah walau sedikit pun sehingga alam pernikahan kami
sbb bak kata manusia..
Lelaki akan berubah bile tiba alam perkahwinan..
aku tidak inginkan perubahan itu..
aku inginkan dirinya sekrang dan terpenting sekali
aku tidak ingin berkongsi...
Die cuba dan ak tidk ingn die berjanji
4 me...janji manusia belum tentu blh ditepati..
So wait 4 my life...
WAIT AND SEE...HOW MY LIFE ONE DAY...
dnt worry i will post my blog 4 new story...

Cinta itu penuh rintangan..
Cinta itu penuh dugaan..
Tidak kira kepada siapa cinta itu ditujukan..
Setiap manusia punya harapan dan keinginan..
Tapi adakah cinta itu berbaloi diperjuangkan...

Aku masih ibarat mimpikan cinta..
Aku masih dahagakan cinta..
Tapi aku takut kehilangannya..
Walaupun bukn sekrang..
Tapi mungkin boleh ditarik bila2 masa..

Apakah cinta kepada manusia hanya ibarat keinginan dan impian sahaja..
Aku mempunyai semmua perasaan cinta..
Tapi keraguan cinta kepada manusia masih belum dapat aku pastikan..
Adakah pengalaman manusia lain memberi tanda..
Atau itu hanya mimpi buruk sahaja

LoVe Is tHe wAy yoU FEeL...

It's become so hard for me to be so pride,
Can bringing me back the real me no judgements in your eyes,
the way you make me feel like finding something real,
the work are so hard to find,
i couldnt get it right this time,
come on take my hand,
lend it if you are,
tiff the way my feel,
make me strong enough,
when i dance with you,
that's how i speak the true,
that's classic when we met,
now you really know...


I love this song... drew yg nyanyi..

Love...What is Love for all of you??
Hm...love is not something like what we always dream about...
Love is not like something that we really needs and wants all the time..
Love is too painfull and too lovely..
Why?
When you are in love with someone..
Everything seems so nice..
But when he done something not rite..
even the small matter..
U will feel so painful..
That is why...
In every policy of love..
Like my mum advice..
Dnt love someone so much especially more than ourselves..

ramadhan hampir blalu..
lebaran smakin menjelang..
hati ku mengaku riang kerna di hati punya teman.
tp hati ku remuk rendam..
teringt nek cuti assignment terbayang
ak sering bertanya bile nak habis belaja ni..haha..
pantun ape jek ak reka..
semalam ak ngn si dia pegi tesco..
buat pengetahuan..
ak berkenan sgt dgn satu beg duit ni..mahal lah gak..
bgi student yg tak berduit spt ak ni..
haha..
ingt2 pas rye br nk cilok kut..
mmdgkan beg duit yg di beri oleh si dia pun..issyy...(tak reti jg beg duit)
ak pun sajelah tunjukkan beg duit 2 kt die..
nk tahu lah pendapat die..
cntek ke tak..coz he my designer and my decision..
klu die kata ok..ak rembat..klu tak.forget it lah..
tak tahu asl..
org leh kata cm lembu dicucuk hidung..tp ak memg suke sume style yg die plih.
nk kate cne kan..
tibe2 leh die sound tanye..nk tak??
ak huh! nk kata nak..kesian die..rye ni byk belanje..
nk kata tak nak..memang ak nk..tp pakai duit sndiri r..
blh plakk die tarik terus g bayar...
uwaa...nk kata sedih ..hahah..ak gembira..ALHAMDULILLAH..
rezeki ak akhirnye..cmey gle beg 2..suke sgt..
Insyaallah akan ku tatang beg itu spt minyak yg penuh..haha

kdg2 ak rs die romantik n cmey sgt..bukn sbb ape yg die blnje utk ku..
tp sikapnye yg kdg2 prihatin..taklah ak slalu mtk die belikan brg..
kdg2 die tak beli ak tak kesh ..tp klu dh janji...ak tak suke dimungkiri..
sblm kami masuk keta..die hulur coklat kegemaran ku..
entah bile die beli tah..
even tak sebesar mane..
ak syg gle kt dielah..
Heheh...Love u dear...
The end story..

hM...cINTA tK SlAlU nYe iNdh...
itu pepatah utk org bercinta..
Well..maksud ak tak sume percintaan itu berakhir dengan kebahagiaan..
ataupun mungkin cinta itu mberi seribu pengalaman utk lebih mematangkan diri..
Aku?Hm...dah 2 kali jatuh cinta..
Utk cinta pertama..sgt2 menyeksakan..Bercinta dgn bf org..mane tak sush
Tp dats nt my fault..it had some history..tp nnt aku huraikan..
Pd mulanya...aku menganggap selepas dia..ak tk mungkin mncari pengganti..
Tp well..im wrong...CINTA BUKAN HANYA DATANG SEKALI..betul jugak pepatah tu..
Tpi biarlah yg datang itu..kita cintai dgn seikhlas hati..
My second love..sm1 from my high school frenz..
Die dh propose ak dkt 3 kali..tp sumenye ak tolak..
sehingga akhirnya ak cube membuka pintu hati utk mmberi peluang pd die..
Itu pun time ak dh kt institusi pengajian after had discussion dgn my mum n frenz..
Tp awl2 ak bg warning yg ak memng takde hati ngn die..
Tp akan cbe belajar menyayangi die..

Rupanya cinta kali ini berkekalan hingga 3 tahun...
Tarikh keramat 9.9...My second love dat will be first and last..I HOPE..
Hidup ini ibarat roda..kite hanya perlu mmberi peluang dlm hati kita utk mengenali dunia..
Aku pun tak sngka ak akan bercinta dgn si dia ni..
I really love him..so much than anyone could imagine..
First time date..die dh bg aku bunga dgn cincin..like the fairy tales come in my life..
second date..he gave me shirts corak love..
He was so caring..
Sume orang tahu yg lelaki ni kdg2 slalunye jenis acuh tak acuh..
means benda tak pntg..die tak akan titik bertkan sgt..Tp 4 my guy..
He different..kdg2 ak pun tak sngka kata2 ak slalu di ingt dan jd pegangan..
E.g. Aku pnh ckp klu rindu kan ak..cincin ditangan itu..dipusingkan dan di cium sbg tanda lambang percintaan..
Aku saje jek..tp rupenye die betul2 buat..
Setiap kali die rindukan ak..
Die akan pusingka bearing cincin kami..dan menciumnya..
Hurmm....
Hw i knw??Tggu 4 other story...
Muaaahhh...