Everything seem's unclear for me..
Everything seem's bored for me..
My mum keep think about him..
All we ever think and mambling about is only him..
Last 4 days ago..tuesday..
I'm still in office..and practice for audition...
But what i receive...about my dad..
"KAK, CEPAT DATANG HOSPITAL, BAPAK NAZAK"
"Boleh jangan main tak?cakap betul2"
She already call my sister in melaka about this matter and urgently call her to come home..
I just said wait and check to hospital due my sis are too worried usually..
I call my fiance..pick him up and urgently he drive to hospital speeding without concerns others..
But what dissapoint me "Kak..bapak dah takde"
I hate this..i hate when i remmember this memory..
I hate myself..
I miss him so much..
I miss to kiss his forehead..
I miss to hear his voice call us..
I miss to have his smell..
I miss his laugh..
Even my mum keep crying thinking about him..
Sunshine of our life..
How tired we are..
He always make us laugh..
Doakan ayah ku ditempatkan orang2 yang soleh
Kerna dia ayah terbaik pernah aku terima ..
Ayah terbaik pernah aku sayangi..
Today's i just got home from hospital
What dissapoint me is everything which happen in my life
Yesterday is my turn to take care of my fathers..
but how upset me is the doctor..
today..my dad is so ill and weak..
Even nurse can't give her any milk for energy since something get through my fathers nose..
okay its fine..
but something kick my head..when she said dat my father had less than 1 week to live for some reason of his weakness..which getting worse than what we think
i cant accept it..even my mum crying in front of me..
for me ..it always have hope..
until this evening..
my grandma, my auntie and my sisters..crying loudly while looking at my fathers...
even all his friends..
he such a nice fathers..kind of friends..everything we know about himm
his smile..funniest...strict...and mostly i love him so much...
doc said we can meet our father anytime we want without any permissions and even not in allowed time...
i'm still fine and silent all dat time..
until this nite while im sending my mum off home..
both of us peek inside of our house..
until i said to myself and my mum also realize it..
usually while we at home.,
we could hear my father motorcycle sounds..
which sign of he got home..
and im always hear that sound which make me look twice to outside ..
please show me that my dad home now..
but what can i do..the motorcycle already outside and always outside without his driver..
and my mum said..usuallly our house will not this silent..
it always full with tv sound because of my father will be at the sofa..
laugh loudly ..
and watch whatever his favorite movie and ask for parata from me..
and now i realize that i really can't live without him
i can;t accept everything now..
i need my father more than anything..
please help me now!
Please..
our family need him so much than he think..
don;t leave us after what happen now..
Please give us great strength to face everything
What dissapoint me is everything which happen in my life
Yesterday is my turn to take care of my fathers..
but how upset me is the doctor..
today..my dad is so ill and weak..
Even nurse can't give her any milk for energy since something get through my fathers nose..
okay its fine..
but something kick my head..when she said dat my father had less than 1 week to live for some reason of his weakness..which getting worse than what we think
i cant accept it..even my mum crying in front of me..
for me ..it always have hope..
until this evening..
my grandma, my auntie and my sisters..crying loudly while looking at my fathers...
even all his friends..
he such a nice fathers..kind of friends..everything we know about himm
his smile..funniest...strict...and mostly i love him so much...
doc said we can meet our father anytime we want without any permissions and even not in allowed time...
i'm still fine and silent all dat time..
until this nite while im sending my mum off home..
both of us peek inside of our house..
until i said to myself and my mum also realize it..
usually while we at home.,
we could hear my father motorcycle sounds..
which sign of he got home..
and im always hear that sound which make me look twice to outside ..
please show me that my dad home now..
but what can i do..the motorcycle already outside and always outside without his driver..
and my mum said..usuallly our house will not this silent..
it always full with tv sound because of my father will be at the sofa..
laugh loudly ..
and watch whatever his favorite movie and ask for parata from me..
and now i realize that i really can't live without him
i can;t accept everything now..
i need my father more than anything..
please help me now!
Please..
our family need him so much than he think..
don;t leave us after what happen now..
Please give us great strength to face everything