BuZZ...NoThInG mOrE...

Well..he went back to work again..

and i feel so sad..why??i do not know..

2 hours..we met..

he promise to spend more time for me...

but again...he cant do that for me..

i know he love me so much 

and i love him so much too..

i understand dat he need to work for us..

but cant him take one day juz to spend time for me..

especially when he receive his salary..

our anniversary..he met me juz 1 hours..

then met me again..juz to accompany him to pay something or go to bank..

but never had something special which we can call "dating"..

i think no more...

okay..i know ..i cant said anything about it..

who i am??

no work..nothing..no money..

he didnt notice..dat sometimes i need him..

but he not there..

but i cant complain because i need to give him space and time..

for work..

im too bored rite now at home..

but what could i do??

never mind..

this juz piece of me who need attention i think..

who might confuse with my own feelings....

call..msg...juz he know what he do now...

i cant judge anything about it..dat might make me regret ..

How sweet and romantic this story for me...

My whole and deep in heart beat and pounding so fast every time i read the books about them..

Its make me smile and smile all the time like crazy..

But since the movie are out..

I force him to watch with me..hehe..

well he booked the ticket on that day...on 9.35 pm..

How sweet he is...Love him so much!!

Well ..nice but too much cut in the story from the book..which the books are much more details and touching than the real movie..

but of course edward face make my heart beating...all the time(opppss ..sori dear..of course i notice you all the time beside me..)

but differently for jacob appearance...

its really amaze me for a while..(handsome boy)

Edward looks so nice in the story but differently for robert pattinson...(hm..well like all of you know)

I dislike him outside the movie...

Differently for Jacob character which more nice and attractive in the second movie..

However...im really crazy about all this vampire books..

which really attract me to collect all 4 books..

Twilight, New Moon, Eeclipse and Breaking Dawn..

and him..well try so hard to fulfill my dream..but i know its impossible..

RM200 for all those books..haha..

But i try my best..

never mine dear..

i can try by myself..independent woman..i think!!

u know what...I read New Moon books triple times without feel bored..

Heheh....I cant forget all character especially alice..

I love this story..its make me happy especially with my mood about my jobs...

No jobs for this moment which makes me pressure about my family..

"Belajar tinggi2..tp sampai skrg tak dpt tolong famiily"

Imagine my feeling especially for elder daughter like me!!!

actually my family didnt say anything..they understand...

juz i cant help to feel guilty about it

Hate this feelings....

Well it is such a long time i didnt write anything about myself...
So many story to tell but do not know where to start..

"Love is Fairytales"

I think some of you had heard of this phrase from me...
Come out from my mouth whenever i felt frustrated and upset..
Well it is true and really true..
But actuallly we cant always expect beautiful love story in our life..like me...
Before fall in love...the fantasy of love are more than i expected..
But after fall in love..the fantasy are just some childish imagine which lack of maturity..
Dats my opinion..

However...fall in love with him make me always think about something INSIDE of life..
I admit that i am stubborn, childish, selfish and hard to hear other people advice..
But something different about him..(perfector...)
4 years take a long step for me and him..
He always teach me about family relation, punctual, life of human and many things..
but what can i say about him..he's look perfect even i know his weakness..
moreover, he is a family man..
(before this, i am not inter in family things but he always try to convince me dat family is more important than others)

Tonite, he make me think about marriage life..
His friends had ask about our relations which how he could stand with long relationship with me..
4 years is not so easy to get through with just one girl in life..
Well... i admit that he had so many girlfriends before which are more better than me..
but why me??
He also said this to me: "Kalau yang baik dah di depan mata...kenapa nak di lepaskan !!
He is talking about some silly girl like me who are stupid and ugly..wow!!stunning for a while


Well f.y.i.. he is the nice guy that i ever met which always...always try to care about my feelings..
never stop me to be friends with anybody ..
and handsome guys..
Well before dis, he is the most handsome guy which also cute in my PG school..
but never notice dat because i am so blind about all those feelings and guys thing...eauuuhhh...
yucks...
He had his own style even the chinese girl like him..
but i never set my eyes for him..not even one..
but after we in relationship...he is slowly turn to big and fat guys which make me love him more and more than before..

why is dat..??i'm not even know..
Oh my...it is so long post today..
However, what can i say here..
LOVE IS FAIRYTALES..
Because it is not stand long...
But love is something make us appreciate our life..
so guys out there...please be more sensitive...
Girls do not need your wealthy or face..
But attention which could also defend them in hard or loses..
We are the one who decorate love..
So it is no such things that love is powerful and beautifull...
Haiya...it;s more thorn which people could say ...DUGAAN