BuZZ...NoThInG mOrE...

huh!felt uneasy and so sensitif
Nt evry1 can take it our attitude,
Nt evry1 can accept who we r,
Even the close 1,
Even the nice 1,
When the time is comes,
They will start tired and make face without we notice,
I like 2 chat and i like to tell what i felt,
Like 2 write diary so dat less talk,
When sm1 notice,and said diary 4 pscyho&depressed,
I stop writing and its make me more talk,
And start uneasy feeling when i felt i start make uncomfortble envirnmt 4 people,
I thought im gd in relation&communicate,
Its seems like dats only me who so perasan,
Im just being myself
I cant hate myself but its make me lose my identity &cnfuse all the time,
Lose faith and being loser!
Huh~depressed look at mirror.
Go babe~

npe byk sgt rules?
Npe tindak tanduk kte slalu slh?
Xboleh cmni,xblh cm2..
Bgus klu saling menegur.
Tp kdg2 nk gak selamba,happy gila2 tp guys different perspective.
Cuba jgn cmni dpn org..
Tgk 2 org tgk..
Malu tau..
U gurau xkna tmpt lah!

Ok fine.klu cube nk mengulas,jwpn nye 'i dah tahu u xblh terima pnye'..
'2 yg mls nk tgur'..
'u mane blh ajak bncg'

So jwpn bg kte: snyp je lah.nk wt cne.kte gak slh,
~huh..haiyoo..~

hari ni entah kenapa hati aku cm marah..
bingit and tak senang....
actually senang cite seriusly sensitif..
why every men tak pnh sensitif dgn perasaan pmpuan..
i know he tired..but i dnt knw why..
deep in my heart..
i always said im always tired...
but no matter how tired i am..
he always my priorities especially we will getting married
i dont know why but usually when im tired and he;s there..
i felt comfortable and all my tired gone away..
but of course for a men usually different..

I HATE THIS FEELINGS..
I HATE WHEN HE ANGRY..
I HATE ALL THIS..

hye there!
Smthng filling fully and exceeding in my head.
Why girls/woman looks more beautiful aftr married?
Especially..menjelang waktu kahwin.kecantikan nye sgt menyerlah.lepas kawen lg lah keba boombastic.mengalahkan anak dara.cntek sgt!(admire so much).
E.g u can see artis2..yg br2 ni raja farah.
All my auntie b4 married randomly just plain like us tapi.pas kawen haiyoo,cntek bangat dong.bdn pn magnificent.haha..
Wondering..hm..

Fllw by my fiance,guys usually but nt all more hypnotized by girl whom own by others such as engaged,married and janda.
Bak kata seorg lelaki,'sdgkan kapal blh dirampas,inikan pula isteri org.'
Hati manusia pn blh berubah bak pntai dan laut yang ad pasang surutnya!
Issyy..mintak djauhkan dr ak dan keluarga.simpang malaikat 44.

P.s:ingt nk letak pic pbezaan wanita2 sblm dan slps kawen.busylah kt opis.blk nanti lah.hehe

what u do when life ar not expected?
What did you do when love as not you dream?
What did u do when u r the only one ur family depends of?

Aku tdk pnh tfkr akn 3 ayat i2 hingga smpai waktunye ak menjelang dwasa.
brumur 24thn pd 5bulan lalu.
Haish..hwevr still lucky even love nt as xpectd.
he always be there.pnh skali kami nk try xpyh jmpe.utk smggu knn2.tp mstilah jmpe even jap tnye khbr like evryday he ask 'keje mcm mane ari ni?ad mslh?' atau 'hari ni nk g mane?'

Love as we dream.well all girls knw that..coz even nt much.still its there.pretty thought,evry special day or smtimes.its full of surprise.well guys nwadays,u knw how rite?sm1 who build castle juz 4 us and nt try to ruin it.its pretty lucky!romantic nt too much.yg pntg walau scntik mana pn wanita,he still felt us the best.but ad lg ke lelaki cm2?hehe.for my guy,the best thng.he like evrythng and best fwen.

Family-hm..24 hours blk uma.kind of sad and wnri.why nt.?i wnt to give the best.but who could determine our own dstiny.try fllw dis wave 'I WANNA BE A BILLIONAIRE SO FREAKING BAD'. Very funny but true..ahakz

i just felt very angry today!!
Why people will never think about past?
Don't they know that past will make we appreciate people more and will not loses them for future..
Why doesnt they think before get angry and sound people whenever they like..
Sometimes not everything we done..we must tell people ...
but not everything we done,people will not notice..
give attention and felt it..
all people have their own contribution..
don't ever say that it was a burden if you doesnt no anything about it..
hear from others doesnt make it right always..

Sometimes mouth not good if we are not careful to throw it..
like me..i know how bad i am in conversations..
i know how bad i am in everything even he keep babling to me..
which sometimes i felt he doenst accept me by who i am..
but whatever happen today and next..i m trying and trying to support him no matter wat..
bcoz i know who he is inside and outside even i always felt hurt when he GET angry ..
but i know we cant change people just like dat..
we need to build it by love..
im still patient and patient waiting ...

Sacrifice is a big thing happen in his life..
but the people he sacrifice for never think about him at all..
moreover if it was own blood..
how hurt we are when we knew about it..


xoxo..FAMILY IS IMPORTANT
BUT HOW ABOUT FAMILY WHO LOOSEN THE TIE RELATIONSHIP..

Kadang - kadang aku tak faham dengan keadaan yang menimpa keluarga,
sekejap ok..kejap tak ok
tapi semuanya hanya berpunca pd satu...
aku pun tak tahu nk selesaikan macam mane..
yang aku tahu otak ni gila kusut bila smpai masanya..


Semalam aku gaduh dgn si dia...
gila marah die kat aku ..sedangkan hnya skali aku msg die suh cpt..
aku tahu die pnt..
tu kadang2 aku nyesal atau rs serba salah nk ajak si dia..
tp nk wt cne..die dh memang sebahagian hidup aku..
bile die takde..aku rs kosong and bosan..
tp juz bcoz one msg..
he drive my car like crazy...
shout at me..and angry coz im not understand him..
aku tak tahu kenapa tp aku kuatkan smgt and juz snyp..
die tnye aku still masih blh berlembut..
ni semua kerana kawan ku..
die dh tunggu aku kt shell nk ajak g beraya uma leader ku..
so die slalu ajar aku..jgn wt org tertunggu2 kite..
sbb aku pun tahu how it felt rite?
i dnt knw dat he will be dat angry..
is it my fault?
dlm otak aku ms tu hanya satu..
satu pihak kerana kawan..satu pihak kerana sayang..
aku masih berpura2 gembira walaupun sering dimarah..
mybe dh sebati..
lagipun kite kan nk kawen..
i cant imagine my married life if we are not tolerate..
lgpun aku kenal die..
tak lama pas2 pasti dia akan berfikir sndiri and try to ask me forgiveness..
there he is..im sori sayang"
so there i am..even the mood spoil...juz try not to make it more longer argurement..
moreover im getting married rite?

Especially for today..
my neigbourh will be married tomorrow..
im so jeles...
bila lah rezeki aku nk smpai..
moreover..all my neighbour keep asking me about my date..
huh...sape tak nk kawen lebih2 lagi arini temankan si dia g beli barng baby utk present his frends..
we keep chose and dont knw why inside my heart,...im so touch..
when is my day?
tp i dnt want to make he worried or bored especially about money..
but the funny thing is ..
he said suddenly : cute pulak brg baby ni..cm nk cepat kawen jek..hahah


i love him so much..love so much

Salam to everybody who read my blog,

Well nothing interesting for the moment which full with problem in my head now..
You know why...cause it too full and felt to blast out..

Firstly, new story about me ..
I have my own car now

Saga SE white colour(pic coming soon)..actually forgot to take my own car pic
Its so nice to have our own car even its heavy to carry the way of owned the car...
My new house which still waiting for car keys in Taman Scientex which however sharing and caring with my fiance..
New story : I'am getting married soon which no dates for the moments because some problem

Now i'm working at some place(cannot mention here) which ok and absolutely fine for me but of course as degree holder even not ask for more but of course we would love to have increment..
this job..ok! Salary..ok!but still not enough..
Well first child rite...family..married and bla..bla..
all using money..so i need to chaiyoook more about my carier..

More story will coming out about me , him, family and my family..
wait soon..