BuZZ...NoThInG mOrE...

Ak blur bile time sume orang blk ke umah..
ak blur bile sume org hepi balik ke umah..
tapi ak takde feeling langsung nk blk..
no excited..no feelings..nothing..
jiwa ak kosong..
smpai ak tak tahu nk buat ape..
should i stay or home??
but..................................................
huh!! Blur..i hate when its holiday time..
its always make me in blur........................

i always wondering bout men..
dis is not about my men..
but bout all men around me..
my fren boyfren..
so many tragic love story dis year..
why men are so cool but women feel like dying...
separate with someone dat we really love and being part of our life..
its something hard to take...
dnt men ever realize when women give her heart..
so its means the women left nothing even only the heart..
women different from men..
she never look back or regret for every love they gave...
even they always nagging or angry..
but dat is women appearance..
weakness and however that could complete men life..
but they just dont realize until they lost them..
could it have to be separation to make people realize...
women can patience to men attitude but why not men??
why they are so egoistic in their life??
women didnt ask more than their life..
but only some attention and love..
is dat hard for them to fulfill..
why need to go to wrong way..
when there are right way that they can choose..
did women ask something high??which they cant reach..
we just need them to look to our eyes and smile to give their world to us..
being part of life is more than enough..
think that..
even the cheap thing could be precious and valuable in women life...

Is im too selfish or men didnt understand what we want??
Did long relationship always the reasons couple break off??
Did romantic and take women heart are so hard to understand or men really cant understand any of it??
Did women ask something impossible??
Did im too selfish because ask more??
Huh...dats make me confuse..
Did responsibility always being one of the consequence??
Or juz men mindless in make something precious or think something special for his love??
Close ur eyes and think about it..
What i want actually??
I love surprise..surprise in lovely thing in my life and having sweet thing in my life..
But dats is the dream of every women in their life..
But dats is nt easy..bcoz dream is different than reality..
Think about it..
Becoz im done with my dream..

Sometimes about our life...
Something dats so precious and cant be repay..
Did repay someone kindness that help us can be done??
someone dat we dnt even close but could give big favor which even someone related with us cant done like dat??
Its a little bit bother me for a while..
Easy to say than done..
How if one day i dont even remmember or thought about it..
or even being forgetful..
did i could done it...
promise easy than done..
however..chaiyook...
hopefully i could repay all of his family kindness...
Someone dat have done a lot in my studies which help me to success..
being somebody one day..
Through so much in to help me especially in cent...

Hari ni juga ibu ku menghadapi perkara yg sgt menggerunkan..
Ak sedih sbb ak tiada bersamanya..
untuk membantu dan seiring menghadapinya..
BEG IBUKU DIRAGUT...
Tiada yang lebih sedih lagi apabila ak mendengar ibuku dalam bahaya..
Sedih sgt..
ibu selalu balik dr tempat keje berjalan kaki berseorangan..
smpai ke rumah sbb ak dan adik ak tiada bersama..
adik bongsu masih blm pandai bertatih dlm bab kereta..
so usual things my mum do is walk..
Tapi kali ini benar2 ak tak sangka..

Ak rasa mcm nk bunuh jek peragut tu..
aku harap dia ditangkap..
so pulangkan lah kembali brg ibuku..
klu tak ak harap die mati kena langgar supaya tak nyusahkan hidup org..

Beg ibuku diragut..
tp ak tak heran sgt..
besenya mak ak tak bw banyak duit kt dlm..
tp yang ak terkejut..
peragut tu bawa parang..
Huh...Ya Allah..selamatkan mak ak dari segala mara bahaya!!
Ibu ku ni jenis cepat panik..
Dalam gabra2 die..boleh pulak hp terjatuh dr poket die..
boleh ek..peragut tu turun dr motor..
then kutip hp mak ak tu dgn bw parang die..
Huhu...
dahlah mak ak susah payah dptkan hp tu..
susah payah beli tahu tak..
I know how my mum love her hp so much..
lagi2 br beli..
Tiap2 mlm she like to listen to nasyid song which my sis help her to key in..
How lovely...when everynite she listen to the song till sleep..
I love her..
and i know how much dat she had done for us..
the kindness and lovely mum ever..
Im sorii..mum..coz i cant done anythinng for u..

Hidup ku ibarat kapal yang bila2 sahaja boleh pecah..
seteguh mana...sebesar mana pun...
Aku sedih...sedih kerana sesuatu yg tidak diduga menguji kesabaran dan kekuatan hati..
Malah ak merasakan hatiku ibarat kristal yang sedang berderai menyembah lantai..
kuatnya dugaan di hadapi kali ini...
Kenapa semua ini perlu berlaku dlm hidup ak..
Ak tak sangka dan ak tak duga bahawa cerita dan filem yang ak tonton di tv..
berlaku dalam hidup ak..
tp kenapa..kenapa ak...
Semakin ak membesar...hidup ak lebih menjurus ke arah tekanan..
Cepat tua lah ak nmpknye..

Kadang2 ak nak lari dr kehidupan ak setakat ini..
ak nk pergi jauh..
tp ak takut dan ak sayangkan mereka..
Walaupun begini layanan ku dapatkan..
ak masih tidak mahu tinggalkan mereka..
sbb ak tahu mereka pasti akan plukan ak..
biarlah masa menentukan segalanya..
Yang penting..hati ak dh cukup sakit...
Tolonglah ak..Kuatkan hati ak menghadapi semua ini..
Lebih2 lagi dgn sem last ni..
Banyak yg perlu ak lakukan..

I know sometimes we have no right to ask more..
Me 2..but sometimes we as human want more than wat we have..
Love change every perception in human life..
Even with me...
I love him so much...
Same as goes with him..
However...love its not fully enough in our life if not completed with sacrifice..
Love is not just something in our life..
But it also sacrifice of two human heart..
He have done so many thing in my life..
But i always want more...which i dnt even know..

I know he busy..all the time busy with his work..
But i need our time like b4..
b4 we fell in our deep heart..which we promise and realize we r meant together..
Men are change bit by bit when through a long time relationship which they dont realize...
He already show something that i dnt like to hear..to know..
Is not because i dnt want to know my weakness..
and i always mention dat im ur gf..
bcoz i want u to realize dat i need some courage from u..
some love ...something dat i only need by
not critic or bad words..something more that sometimes im helpless to think..
Im not ur friends..im inside u..im ur heart..which u want..
what u really want in ur heart..what u want to hear..what do u want??
dat is inside me..and dats is the only one i want..is you..
and every patient in my heart and forgiveness because of you..
cant you see that..
im not blaming u..i want u to realize how important u r to me...
dats make me come back and back 2 u over again..
even u always make me sad...

I dnt know
How high we are..how long our relation..
we cannot forget our lovely time and dnt even change it..
coz dat is recipe of relationship..

Men are always in big burden..
But dats doesnt mean dat they have to forget their life..fun and something exciting..
If they need help...we as women always behind them..
even we also helpless..
What for the pair means...
They need to know women dnt need promise..
But they need decoration life..
its easy to know women heart..
If u really appreciate their heart and try hardly to understand them..
No conflict or consequences will block ur way..
Women heart just need to caress with soften..
What u want in urself also in women..